( indie peeta mellark )
private & selective
multi-verse
written by tess

_________    proвleм ιѕ, ι can'т
                       тell  wнaт'ѕ  real  
                           anyмore, & wнaт'ѕ
              мade  υp.  

                        #hijackedmemory

                              «

[all] quirks my muse habitually has.

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writers, bold all of your character’s regular truths.

1. smoking: the action or habit of inhaling and exhaling the smoke of tobacco or a drug.
2. binge drinking: the consumption of an excessive amount of alcohol in a short period of time. 
3. drug abuse: the habitual taking of illegal drugs.
4. nail biting: a common body language sign of anxiety/tension.
5. lip biting: a common body language sign of anxiety/tension.
6. night owl: a person who is habitually active or wakeful at night.
7. early bird: a person who rises, arrives, or acts before the usual or expected time.
8. negative attitudes: a philosophy of approaching life with criticism and pessimism.
9. positive attitudes: a philosophy of approaching life with optimism and confidence.
10. swearing: the use of offensive language.
11. superstitious: an irrational belief that an object, action, or circumstance not logically related to a course of events influences its outcome.
12. inspecting fingernails: a common body language sign of boredom.
13. scratching your neck: a common body language sign of uncertainty.
14. foot and finger tapping: a common body language sign of stress/impatience.
15. nose touch: a subtle body language sign of deceit.
16. flipping hair: a common body language sign of craving attention.
17. twirling hair: a common body language sign of flirtation.
18. cracking knuckles: a common body language sign of readiness.
19. hands behind back: a common body language sign of confidence.
20. finger pointing: a common body language sign of authority.
21. hands on hips: a common body language sign of readiness.
22: hands in pockets: a common body language sign of mistrust/reluctance.
23. frequent touch: a common body language sign of warmth/familiarity.
24. throat-clearing: a common body language sign of rejection/doubt.
25: jaw-clenching: a common body language sign of hostility.
26: eye-rolling: a common body language sign of irritation.
27: head-tilt: a common body language sign of interest.
28. whistling: to emit high-pitched sound by forcing breaththrough a small hole between one’s lips or teeth; usually to a tune.
29. humming: make a low, steady continuous sound like that of a bee; usually to a tune.
30. perfectionism: refusal to accept any standard short of perfection.
31. photographic memory: the ability to remember information or visual images in great detail.
32. paranoia: a mental condition characterized by delusions of persecution, unwarranted jealousy, or exaggerated self-importance, typically worked into an organized system.
33. exaggeration: a statement that represents something as better or worse than it really is.
34: intuitive: using or based on what one feels to be true even without conscious reasoning; instinctive.
35: quick-witted: showing or characterized by an ability to think or respond quickly and effectively.
36: interrupting: breaking the continuity of a conversation with one’s own statements.
37: doodling: to scribble or make rough drawings, absent-mindedly.
38: irritable: having or showing a tendency to be easily annoyed.
39: gambling: to play games of chance for money; bet.
40: travel-sick: suffering from nausea caused by the motion of a moving vehicle, boat, or aircraft.
41: sensitive: having or displaying a quick and delicate appreciation of others’ feelings.
42: melancholy: a feeling of pensive sadness, typically with no obvious cause.
43: chewing gum: the exercise of chewing flavoured gum which is not intended for swallowing.
44: fidgeting: to make small movements, especially of the hands and feet, through nervousness or impatience.
45: sceptical: not easily convinced; having doubts or reservations.
46: neat-freak: compulsively obsessed with cleanliness.
47: gossiping: divulging personal information about others.
48: prim: feeling or showing disapproval of anything regarded as improper; stiffly correct.
49: abbreviating: Giving others nicknames/shortening names/giving pet names.
50: having a catchphrase: having a sentence or phrase typically associated with a specific person.

Title: Cristofori's Dream
Artist: David Lanz
Album: Cristofori's Dream
Played: 319 times

Send for my character's reaction.

"No one loves you."
"You're going to die with no one to love you and no on to cry."
"You can't do this on your own."
"I can't do this anymore. Goodbye."
"Why would I ever care about you?"
"You went dark on me!"
"If only there was someone who loved you."
"You're a bitch!"
"I only stuck around to get what I wanted."
"Do you really think I cared?"
"You're a fool."
"Don't believe everything you hear, darling."
"I got what I wanted. I don't need you anymore."
"You're pathetic."
"I hope you die alone."

( anchoredxinhope )

   Apprehension evdient in her gaze, she watches intently as
      he battles himself. It’s eerily quiet here ;  all  of Thirteen  seems
      to have some sort of blanket over it,    something  that  muffles
      every sound except the clap of shoes on  rock-solid floors and
      the hum of electric lighting. But here, in this room, there aren’t
      even  those sounds to fill the vacuum of silence.    All  she  can
      hear  are  the  vague  mutterings  of  Peeta  as  he  debates  the 
      information she’s just given him.    The silence is stifling,   and
      brings  even  the slightest  of their  movements  under  intense
      scrutiny, she’s sure. 

   She’s struck with the thought that Peeta doesn’t have someone
      to help him find reality.  There  isn’t someone who can tell him
      if one thing really happened and another didn’t,   not someone
      he can trust, anyway. She has Finnick.   She can question him,
      and discover whether things she remembers are factual or not.
      But Peeta is alone, and she pities him for it. 

   Biting her lip, she shrugs uncomfortably at his words.   She has
      no idea what’s happened to his family  ;   they  might  be  here,
      somewhere in Thirteen,   with  the other refugees from Twelve,
      but since  she’s  never  seen them  around  the  infirmary,   she
      highly doubts it. It’s not for her to theorize or make guesses.  

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            ❝ I don’t know, Peeta… I’m sure there’s a good reason.
        Finnick says we can trust them to help——— We have to let them. 

                     eyes drop to the metallic surface of the table. there’s  something
                     wrong with the information she’s given him. it’s not that it comes
                     from someone only slightly more stable than him, but who it was
                     really from. the  doctors  said  everything  he’d been  told  in  the 
                     capitol was a lie- everyone did- & he wouldn’t  have  been  stuck
                     there if they hadn’t been plotting against him. haymitch,  katniss,
                     & finnick were all in on it. 

                     peeta’s ‘rescue’ hadn’t been the first by the  rebels; the first  was
                     katniss’. they hadn’t cared if peeta made  it  or  not. just  another
                     reason for the victor to distrust them. they  were  colder  &  more 
                     calculating in method  than  a  team  of  gamemakers  combined. 
                     the thought rapidly sends him  into  a  downward  spiral,  verging
                     on the cusp of insanity. he leans forward, as much as  he  can, &
                     doesn’t waste any time to relay his message.

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                                ❛                         annie, finnick is in on it. he’s plotting 
                                 with katniss!
they came up with the idea even before 
                                 the arena. you can’t trust him! he’s feeding you lies! ❜  

                     the words tumble out rapidly. he’s fully aware  that  once  those
                     on   the   other  side  of  the  glass  decipher  what  he’s  saying,
                     they’ll put an end to it. silence would come with the aid of some
                     suppression drug. he had to  get  his  point  across  quick,  they
                     could already be on to him. his eyes are wild 
while he grabs her
                     wrists, trying to make the message more  pressing, though  the 
                     pain of his vice-like grip & volume of his voice may prove  more 
                     distracting than his words. 

                                ❛                         he’ll put importance on the rebellion
                                 leave you behind! don’t you see it? he just wants
                                 a war! ❜  

   this is just to keep tabs on what interactions etc i have going. if it’s your 
   turn to reply ( lbr it’s probs mine ) , please don’t consider this a push to
   reply- y’all take as much time as you need. i’m still going to be busy at
   the farm anyways. this is only a tracker for me:3 

interactions;
anchoredxinhope x2 ;  ashbound x2 ; whiskeymitch ; offireandrebellion ; xlionhearts ; primofroses ; treebxtch ; escapeologist ; heelbound  ; yxungest ; smxllslikehome ; dauntlxss-born ; jonaslies

promo banners;
jonaslies ; whitlxcked

starters;
none…i think? 

plotting;
rexmare + any other mutual that’s interested  

other;
either a giveaway or bias list idk

   let me know if i missed you! like i said, i will still be at the farm for
   the next little while. i’m hoping to be more active, though! 

 wow, so i’ve been quite busy with work!i’m going
to be back here in the next couple of days. feel 
free to send me plotting messages or anything in
the meanwhile:3

Sep 28 · 1 day ago · 1 note

cxtthroat:

      I just did a follow forever so, here’s a giant promo instead in honor of where
      the fuck did 300 people come from and why did you pick my dumbass to follow?
      These are all blogs where I either interact with them, stalk them for their muse, or
      just generally enjoy seeing them on my dash. 10/10, I think I forgot so many people.

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cxtthroat:

                                   These shadows, they  h a u n t    me;
                                   these voices in my head, foreboding.

                                   ( this black cloud,         it haunts me. )

                                   Its presence takes a hold of me          

                                           You’re never gonna make it out alive.

( jonaslies )

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          "No. Not a guard. Or
          a drone. Jonas.”

He held no contempt on his face, or anger, or betrayal. He
was just— curious, but not selfishly so. He had only heard
things about Peeta Mellark, and never imagined meeting
him. Even like this.

          "Hi."

Jonas felt small under the gaze of the other young man,
but he didn’t shy away.

                     jonas; the name brings no memories forth. he isn’t someone
                     peeta knows, which only makes  him  more  suspicious. was
                     this some kind of test? he shifts on the spot sizes  up the
                     other once more before speaking, 

                                       ❛                         hi, jonas. i guess you already 
                                         know who i am, though i can’t figure out why
                                         you’re bothering to talk to me. ❜

Sep 22 · 1 week ago · 3 notes